The Silent I Know

by Elizabeth Bruce

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credits

released November 1, 2013

Elizabeth Bruce: Vocals, keyboard, backing vocals, trumpet, words & music
Jason "Ja" Sonier: Bass, flute, hammered dulcimer, percussion & screaming
Mike Yates: Cello
Gillian Kirkland: Accordian
Max Cossette: Banjo
Eric Hortop: Screaming
Vivien Hortop: Baby noises

Recorded and mixed by Jason Sonier
Cello recorded by Mike Yates
Produced by Jason Sonier & Elizabeth Bruce
Mastered by Phillip Victor Bova at Bova Sound

Booklet designed by Eric Hortop
Photography by Darren Holmes
Booklet printed by Katari Imaging
Recorded at GigSpace & at the home studios of Jason Sonier & Mike Yates

Thanks...
to Eric Hortop and to my parents for many hours of childcare
to Ja who did not run screaming
to Marilee Townsend-Alcorn at Gigspace
to Darren Holmes
to Joanna Newsom (who bolts like a horse) for lyrical inspiration on track 3
to Katamari Damacy for melodic inspiration on track 17
to Others, un-named or un-nameable that helped along the way

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Track Name: A Call to Arms
Brothers, take up your wands:
This is a call to arms

Sisters, take up your brooms:
This is a call to arms

I spin, I weave, I cast this song
That you might respond

Brothers, take up your wands:
This is a call to arms

Sisters, take up your brooms:
This is a call to arms
After much hand‐waving and incantation
I feel good

Am I but a vessel, nothing more?
Well, vessels sustain and transform
Track Name: Lift the Shroud
Lift the shroud, let me join your crowd,
Lead the way, I am not afraid

Beyond the veil, I see light,
Beyond the veil — Gatekeeper, step aside!

Lift the shroud, let me join your crowd,
Lead the way, I am not afraid

For I have held both life and death inside,
I've held both death and life,

Lift the shroud, let me join your crowd,
Lead the way, I am not afraid
Track Name: Will You Venture There?
Yeah, we both know,
There's one thing on your mind
And it's not kittens or sunshine:
It's the silent, “I know, but I want it so.”

There is a cavern within me,
The size of a pear:
Will you venture there?
For I am bold, like a whore

I long to push forth,
To hear that primal cry

Will you venture there?
Track Name: Our Spawn
My Lady, the answer is Yes...

If you submit to my will,
Lie on your back, Lady
While I bind your wrists,
This won't hurt a bit

And our spawn will do just fine,
Out there in the world
It's not fair in the world,
But our spawn will do just fine

Behold the maids,
That walk the night and fear,
Through the streets they traipse,
They picture their own rapes

But their spawn will do just fine,
Out there in the world,
It's not fair in the world,
But their spawn will do just fine,
And your spawn will do just fine,
Out there in the world,
It's not fair in the world,
But your spawn will do just fine
Track Name: The Eldest One
How did you become who you are today?
I just became in this very moment
I'm just a story, a collection of memories,
And when they are gone, I will be too

Not so long ago, the world revolved around you,
Then someone else came along, you are the eldest one
But it's OK, we'll re‐create, we'll re‐create,
It's OK to forget, I guess

You are a story, it's easy to tell,
You learned it on your papa's knee
And as you go along your merry way,
The tale grows taller than a tree

Not so long ago, the world revolved around you,
Then someone else came along, you are the eldest one
But it's OK, we'll re‐create, we'll re‐create,
It's OK to forget, I guess

How did you become who you are today?
How did you become who you are today?
How did you become who you are today,
how did you become?
I just became in this very moment,
I just became again
Track Name: Strictly Speaking
If we can find time for ourselves
Then we can find the answer to life
We can find god
In our hearts

Well the time has come
Though you weren't expecting it yet
You thought I would follow the rules
Strictly

Strictly Speaking
I could take you down
Strictly Speaking
I could ravish you right now
It's only a possibility
Maybe not the one for me

If we can make peace with ourselves
Then we can find the meaning of life
We can find god
In our pants

Well the time has come again
Though you weren't expecting it yet
You thought I would follow the rules
Strictly

Strictly Speaking ...
Track Name: Bitches vs. Scum
I get you to admit
You mauled the janitor's groin
In the heat of hatred
He was a geezer
A pharmaceutical success story
Well I won't say anything about his mother
The no‐good son‐of‐a—
He deserves a nosebleed sandwich
Which I'll prepare lovingly
Apron donned,
Things could get messy
And red is not my colour
Viagra keeps him up
But together we can keep him down
The rising count of victories
For bitches vs. scum
For bitches vs. scum
Track Name: Bastard
Remember when I said you were a nice guy?
I take it back, it was all an act
In my estrogen‐fuelled complacency
I accept, I accept, I accept,

You're a bastard, and you lied,
But I don't mind, I don't mind,
You're a bastard and you lied,
But so did I, so did I

I can give as good as you do,
But how much can you take?
Just because you can doesn't mean you should,
There must be better things to do with your time,

You're a bastard, and you lied,
But I don't mind, I don't mind,
You're a bastard and you lied,
But so did I, so did I

When you have, you squander
And when you don't you beg,
You begged me not to write this song,
But you deserve what you get,

You're a bastard, and you lied,
But I don't mind, I don't mind,
You're a bastard and you lied,
But so did I, so did I
Track Name: Scrollwork Borders and Silhouettes of Birds
Sitting here at the pharmacie,
Whiling the hours with my tisane,
Waiting, hoping,
Aching for you to notice me,

But I barely exist in your mind,
And why should I?

Yeah, I barely exist,
In your mind, only the shell commands attention,
The scrollwork borders and silhouettes of birds

I know the dress code and the haunts,
But I'll always be peculiar,
I shan't pander,
Take it or leave it, as you will,

I know I barely exist in your mind,
And why should I?

Yeah, I barely exist,
In your mind, only the shell commands attention,
The scrollwork borders and silhouettes of birds
Track Name: What is to Come
I can measure my life
In cycles of blood and lust,
I can measure my life
In cycles of blood and lust
And loves lost

I'm sure it's not healthy
To be nostalgic already
Maybe I simply see what is to come

I can measure my life
In phases of love and hate,
I can measure my life
In phases of love and hate
And twists of fate

I'm sure it's not healthy
To be nostalgic already
Maybe I simply see what is to come
Track Name: Lion Tamer
I don't exist to make you feel fine about what you did to me I'm living proof that children are resilient,
But it still feels sore

Lion tamer, tame me,
Take my rage away,
I volunteer
Lion tamer, tame me,
Take my anger and fear

I am calm and unafraid because I'm sure I know the way
And I know that you know you're in the wrong,
So let's move on

Lion tamer, tame me,
Take this rage away,
I volunteer
Lion tamer, tame me,
Take my anger and fear

The olive branch, the turned cheek,
I come in peace, I want to heal
The olive branch, the turned cheek,
I speak peace, I want to heal
The olive branch, the turned cheek,
I lead with peace, I want to heal

Lion tamer, tame me,
Take this rage away,
I volunteer
Track Name: Easy Way Out
To the romance of the far off,
We both fell prey,
To the romance of the far out,
We got caught up in the glamour of the fae,
It pulled us in, we couldn't pull away,

But I caught myself again, taking the easy way out,
I caught myself again, but I could not see the way out,
I found myself again taking the easy way out,
I found myself again, but I could not find a way out,

It's a trap! It's a cult!
I understand,
It's a trap! It's a cult!
I understand you want to be a god,
But that's a lot of work you know,
You made me feel like I'm one of the chosen few to get it,
Yeah, I get it, it's a trap! It's a cult! And I'm trapped!

But I caught myself again, taking the easy way out,
I caught myself again, but I could not see the way out,
I found myself again taking the easy way out,
I found myself again,

I found myself in the strangest way,
I found myself in the strangest place,
I found myself in the strangest way,
I found myself upside down...
Track Name: Ready or Not
Well the cobbler said, "Don't bother,"
So I bought myself some nice new boots
Made of shiny, shiny leather,
Shiny, shiny leather,
Shiny, shiny leather,
Shiny, shiny leather,

And I photographed myself wearing them
With a pumpkin in between my legs
Like some goddess of the harvest,
Goddess of the harvest,
Goddess of the harvest,
Goddess of the harvest,

Ready or not, here I come,
Ready or not, here I come,

At the magazine rack in the drugstore
There were horoscopes for the year:
There was one for every star sign,
One for every star sign,
One for every star sign,
One for every star sign,

I picked up a few and leafed through them,
And in the long‐range forecast
They all said the same thing,
They all said the same thing,
They all said the same thing,
They all said the same thing,

Ready or not, here I come,
Ready or not, here I come,

Well, the gardener down the street
Was ridding her lawn of weeds,
But the dandy dandelion,
Dandy dandelion,
Dandy dandelion,
Dandy dandelion,

Has a cottonball tuft of seeds,
And when the wind picks up,
They disperse in all directions,
Fly in all directions,
Fly in all directions,
Fly in all directions,

Ready or not, here I come,
Ready or not, here I come.
Track Name: Pretty Bird
What am I to believe when you tell me,
Nothing will ever go wrong?
What am I to believe when you say that,
Nothing will ever go awry?

May I rest, pretty bird,
In your nest, pretty bird,
May I dream of you?
May I stay, pretty bird, I
n your heart, pretty bird?
May you dream of me!

How am I gonna kick this addiction,
How will I manage on my own?
What am I supposed to do without you?
What will I turn to next?

May I rest, pretty bird,
In your nest, pretty bird,
May I dream of you?
May I stay, pretty bird,
In your heart, pretty bird?
May you dream of me!
Track Name: The Mandrake
A storybook farm, all primary green,
If there were such a thing
I'm full of fantasy, full of dream,
But the harsh reality of what lies underneath...

Old trunks and tree stumps,
The earth decays, decays, decays,
The maggots, the sow bugs, the worms at play,
The gnarled roots I pulled,
I yanked the mandrake from his home,
His scrotum was wrinkled like a walnut shell,
Crack it open! Crack it open!

But his yell, such a violent yell!
It sounded like skeletons fucking
On a hot tin roof

The wild hart leapt at the sound,
And my wild heart leapt too,
The wild hart leapt at the sound,
And my wild heart leapt too.
Track Name: Bandaid Solution
You can borrow, you can spend
Other people's money
Until the cows come home,
You can build it up and up and up,
But when the weather comes,

It's just a bandaid solution,
It's just a bandaid solution,
Until it falls apart, just like I told you

You'll find no sympathy here
You left a scar,
You can build a cross up on a hill,
But when the weather comes,

It's just a bandaid solution,
It's just a bandaid solution,
Until it falls apart, just like I told you

I said, I said,
Stop striving,
You'll find no sympathy here.
Track Name: You'll Come Back to Me
We used to walk around,
Walk around holding hands,
We were paper dolls,
Paper dolls on Queen Mary Road,

Maybe I'm naïve,
But I believe you'll come back to me,

That day we walked into the abandoned school room,
The sun was muted by the chalk dust in the air,
I could have said it then and there,

Maybe I'm naïve,
But I believe you'll come back to me.
Track Name: Surprise and Delight
Much to my surprise and delight,
You were straddling me,
You inched toward my face,
And I pulled you up to meet me,
I felt the slick rosebud break my lips,

My daemon nipped my hand and I lookèd up,
Oh, your head was gone,
I said, your head was gone,

I found a vent in the wall,
That I could squeeze through,
So I hoisted myself up,
Into a small room,
I thought the drugs were heavy,
But they seemed benign,

And somewhwere else,
Maybe outside a school,
I ran into an old friend,
And in her red gingham dress,
She made me feel like dirt,
Shr made me feel like dirt.
Track Name: We'll Never Be Erased
If I made it known to all my friends,
Would you come and kiss me then?
If I wore my heart upon my sleeve,
Would you open up to me?

We'll never be erased,
We'll never be erased,
Yay yo, yay yo

If I draw the blinds,
Try to hide my light,
And I tell myself it's fine,
Well I know inside that's just a lie,
Gotta hold my banner high,

We'll never be erased,
We'll never be erased,
Yay yo, yay yo
Track Name: I've Got Answers
I saw you there, as though you were alive,
Like you never really died,
And you said, “Why'd you forget about me?”

I've got answers to that question,
Yes I do,
I've got answers to that question,
And they are good ones,
Let me assure you,

You said, “I am more than flesh and blood,
More than a mouth to feed,
I have a name and a spirit,
Would you deny me that?“

I've got answers to that question,
Yes I do,
I've got answers to that question,
And they are good ones,
Let me assure you, But I wonder,

What am I good for,
If not loving you?
What am I good for,
If not loving you?

I've got answers to that question,
Yes I do,
I've got answers to that question,
And they are good ones
Let me assure you.
Track Name: Kindred
So your daddy was a man unlike mine,
Does it make a big difference,
In the grand scheme of things?

In the grand scheme of things,
We are kindred, kindred,

When you're walking in a crowd, does it feel,
As though nobody else is a real human being?

In the grand scheme of things,
We are kindred, kindred,

When I held you in my arms, I could feel,
That our spirits were melding,
And the universal mind was mine,
Sometimes it feels like I could love
Every single one of you,
I've got a real big heart, I wanna let it out,
I just will